Not the worst week, but

Can I just say this?
I did not go to the hospital.

1. did not have work
2. did not have children to take care of
3. have an amazing, understanding, supportive husband
4. friends helped me hang on. listened to me cry, to my memories
5. understood CPSTD and brain scars from childhood maltreatment
6. knew meds could solve the breakdown
7. went horseback riding

I think if I stayed home, didn't do anything, I'd be ok.
That's what I think, that's what I want sometimes, 
Fool that I am, fool.

I am mentally ill.
I never have said it.

Breaking through denial hurts,
but there it is.